MDD :: Major Depressive Disorder
:: 2001 - 2002 ::
After the neck injury, I developed Major Depressive Disorder for the first time.
The emotional damage was far worse than the injury in my case.
I was only a freshman in high school and just trying to figure out how to be a teen and fit in.
I also was trying to cope with the fact that my life had just suddenly stopped and I had to relearn normal mobility over the course of a few months.
During the few years after, I felt very alone. People don't really know that what they say can really hurt others. I remember so much.
"You're faking it"
"You look fine"
"You're trying to get attention"
"She has problems"
Loss of interest
"I'm a problem"
Fatigue and body pain
No love in the world helped
Heightened emotions (paired with being a HSP was even worse)
Being distant and isolated with people
- for me it was fears of being misunderstood and not being supported and treated poorly as I had been
Concentration Issues and Brain fog
- I already had PTSD and GAD so this was a big anxious party
Feeling and not feeling at the same time
"I'm a burden"
No motivation or drive